i NEED motivation

We went to St George with my side of the family. My little sister wanted to go shopping so I left the boys with Ryan and went with her, my mom, my other sister and her husband. We went to Down East and they had some of the cutest clothes. I found a skirt that I fell in love with and it was on clearance for 10 bucks. I tried it on much to my discouragement it didn't fit. I thought about buying it as a incentive. Maybe I should have but didn't. We went to another store and I found a skirt it fit and its cute I bought it. Here is my issue with that.
It is a elastic band. the other was a zipper. As I've been thinking about it all my comfy clothes are elastic band. I don't look cute and I feel awful I need motivation but I can't seem to find it. BLAH!

New Year

It is a brand new year. The slate has been wiped clean. I am starting AGAIN! I really don't like getting on my treadmill. It faces a blank wall and I can't stand staring at the wall even if I do have my ipod on. I have been pondering what I could do to fix it. I thought of rearranging my room so I could maybe get it to face the TV but that isn't going to work. So it has been a really good clothes rack lately. I have felt awful about it because I begged my husband to buy it for me. Well I finally came up with an idea and I hope it works. We have a portable DVD player and I have a few TV series on DVD so I am going to try watching 1 show a exercise day and see if that works. Why do I need to be entertained? Well I know I can go longer if I am entertained. I'm shooting for 4 days a week at 45 minutes a day. If weather is nice I think I may try for an outside walk. I got some new shoes with some money I got for Christmas so I really have no excuses!! wish me luck!

Hello Again!

I have been neglecting a lot of things lately. My weight loss has been one of those. I have new motivation! My Brother in law got himself engaged yesterday. What a fun Christmas present!! There is no date set yet that I know of but if I have learned anything from my ups and downs it is that weight loss is not a last minute thing that you can do a week before a wedding. Therefore I am going to put a plan into action and see if I can't lose a few pounds before the big day!

Go Fish

While playing go fish with Coleton today, which he was cheating just like his dad does when playing games. It was his turn and asked for a gold fish I happened to have it and gave it to him he then says to the cards... "ha ha ha you are off the menu!" I love that little kid.

I've fallen and I can't get up.

Funny how when life throws curve balls it knocks you off your balance. I'm sure I wasn't completely balanced anyway. I wasn't firmly rooted in my place physically or mentally. I need to regroup and get going again. I think I will start again with little goals. I am feeling a little overwhelmed with everything that I have going on. I'm beginning to think that I jumped into the deep end of the pool and forgot how to swim. I should have rethought all the volunteering that I decided to do at my son's new school this year. So I am going to write down my goals on where I am and where I want to be. I am going to set dates and rewards. I think that will help. I will do it tonight and try and post them tomorrow. If I fail someone feel free to slap me upside the head or throw a water balloon at me.

Sometimes it would be easier to give up.

And that about says how I am feeling today. Yes I just want to give up and eat a LOT of chocolate and bread and crackers and chips. I want to..."Have the guts to just get really fat" {fried green tomatoes} and then after my little pity party I sigh and keep at it. My friend says that she is a work in progress. I LOVE IT! I am a work in progress.

Last week

The Family weigh in is on Sunday. I'm going to hit the food journal and exercise HARD this week. Yes I realize I should have been doing this all along and I have just not consistently. One way I think I am going to get some exercise in is riding my bike with the stroller down to the high school for Remington's football camp. Then the hour that he has camp I'm going to walk/run the track. Am I nuts?? My plans may change as the week goes on. Camp is at 9 am I think I'll be ok with the heat, but the up hills on the way home may just kill me.