i NEED motivation

We went to St George with my side of the family. My little sister wanted to go shopping so I left the boys with Ryan and went with her, my mom, my other sister and her husband. We went to Down East and they had some of the cutest clothes. I found a skirt that I fell in love with and it was on clearance for 10 bucks. I tried it on much to my discouragement it didn't fit. I thought about buying it as a incentive. Maybe I should have but didn't. We went to another store and I found a skirt it fit and its cute I bought it. Here is my issue with that.
It is a elastic band. the other was a zipper. As I've been thinking about it all my comfy clothes are elastic band. I don't look cute and I feel awful I need motivation but I can't seem to find it. BLAH!

New Year

It is a brand new year. The slate has been wiped clean. I am starting AGAIN! I really don't like getting on my treadmill. It faces a blank wall and I can't stand staring at the wall even if I do have my ipod on. I have been pondering what I could do to fix it. I thought of rearranging my room so I could maybe get it to face the TV but that isn't going to work. So it has been a really good clothes rack lately. I have felt awful about it because I begged my husband to buy it for me. Well I finally came up with an idea and I hope it works. We have a portable DVD player and I have a few TV series on DVD so I am going to try watching 1 show a exercise day and see if that works. Why do I need to be entertained? Well I know I can go longer if I am entertained. I'm shooting for 4 days a week at 45 minutes a day. If weather is nice I think I may try for an outside walk. I got some new shoes with some money I got for Christmas so I really have no excuses!! wish me luck!

Hello Again!

I have been neglecting a lot of things lately. My weight loss has been one of those. I have new motivation! My Brother in law got himself engaged yesterday. What a fun Christmas present!! There is no date set yet that I know of but if I have learned anything from my ups and downs it is that weight loss is not a last minute thing that you can do a week before a wedding. Therefore I am going to put a plan into action and see if I can't lose a few pounds before the big day!

Go Fish

While playing go fish with Coleton today, which he was cheating just like his dad does when playing games. It was his turn and asked for a gold fish I happened to have it and gave it to him he then says to the cards... "ha ha ha you are off the menu!" I love that little kid.

I've fallen and I can't get up.

Funny how when life throws curve balls it knocks you off your balance. I'm sure I wasn't completely balanced anyway. I wasn't firmly rooted in my place physically or mentally. I need to regroup and get going again. I think I will start again with little goals. I am feeling a little overwhelmed with everything that I have going on. I'm beginning to think that I jumped into the deep end of the pool and forgot how to swim. I should have rethought all the volunteering that I decided to do at my son's new school this year. So I am going to write down my goals on where I am and where I want to be. I am going to set dates and rewards. I think that will help. I will do it tonight and try and post them tomorrow. If I fail someone feel free to slap me upside the head or throw a water balloon at me.

Sometimes it would be easier to give up.

And that about says how I am feeling today. Yes I just want to give up and eat a LOT of chocolate and bread and crackers and chips. I want to..."Have the guts to just get really fat" {fried green tomatoes} and then after my little pity party I sigh and keep at it. My friend says that she is a work in progress. I LOVE IT! I am a work in progress.

Last week

The Family weigh in is on Sunday. I'm going to hit the food journal and exercise HARD this week. Yes I realize I should have been doing this all along and I have just not consistently. One way I think I am going to get some exercise in is riding my bike with the stroller down to the high school for Remington's football camp. Then the hour that he has camp I'm going to walk/run the track. Am I nuts?? My plans may change as the week goes on. Camp is at 9 am I think I'll be ok with the heat, but the up hills on the way home may just kill me.

Days like today!!

You know its days like today when I get on the scale and see a lower number that make me happy!!

Last week I was in the..200's

{don't judge me this is hard to put out there}

I can happily say that I am

NO LONGER!!

hip hip hurray!!

Its nice to know that watching what I eat
and exercising pays off slowly but it is!

I had given up on winning the family biggest loser contest.

I may still be in it!!

My 2 sister in laws think so.

Healthy options

I really have been trying to make healthier choices in the foods that I eat. Some days are better than others. I try to but wheat bread, bagels and tortillas. My kids complain so I occasionally buy white but I don't eat it. I have been counting calories and exercising but not consistently. Weight loss is an up hill battle. Very frustrating and not a lot of progress. One thing that I have discovered that I really like is hummus. It makes a really yummy sandwich spread. It is a lot healthier that mayo or miracle whip. My favorite one currently is the Sabra Spinach and Artichoke Hummus. It is delicious with crackers and even veggies! The only problem is its kind of pricey but isn't that how all healthy foods are?

Superman and Bananas

There is this ab move in the P90X work outs. You lay on your stomach and lift your arms and legs off the floor and "fly" like superman then he tells you banana and you flip over on your back and lift your legs off the floor and arms in the shape of a banana.
I AM NOT A FAN.
It works your core good and I am sore!

Sore again

Its day 2 and yes I am sore again. I did the "core" workout for P90X  yesterday and my core is not that sore maybe I did it wrong, but my legs and back are feeling it! I also took my measurements for arms, thighs, hips, and stomach. I weighed in again and now have a pretty good starting point. I think I need slightly heavier weights then I have been using. I'm thinking 5 pounds. Right now I have 2 pound ones. They are great for somethings but I'm a little stronger in other areas.

just a little something or not!

Its only 6 pm and I am 50 calories under my calories for the day goal. Should have passed up that cookie! I guess I won't be munching on anything tonight! Besides I cut myself off from eating after 8pm anyway. I can make it right??
So what do I do if I get hungry you ask?? WATER and then go to bed early. That way breakfast comes that much sooner.
Have a fantastic day!

Sore Muscles= hard work!

Remember how I keep saying "I'm starting again.", "I'm getting back on track.", "Tomorrow is the day."
Well guess what...
Yesterday was the day! I didn't have time to start p90x so I did my Jillian Michaels SHRED DVD instead and this morning I woke up with sore muscles! That is a good thing right? I weighed myself and I've gone up about a pound since I weighed myself last. I can do it, I can do it, I can do it!!

Salsa Verde Pork Chops with Lemon Rice

Are you ready for another yummy recipe?? OK here it is. I got part of the idea from a cooking blog and tweaked it a little. I hope you enjoy! Sorry no picture.

Pork Chops:
Season 5 boneless pork loin chops with salt and pepper and a touch of cumin then brown pork chops in a pan. Add about 1 cup of green salsa verde sauce. Let simmer for about 5-10 minutes and serve over lemon rice

Lemon Rice:
Squeeze the juice of one lemon into a measuring cup and then add enough water you will need to cook rice to feed 4-5 people. Cook the rice as you normally would. I added a touch of lemon zest too. I used instant brown rice so I could get dinner on the table faster.

I served this with strawberries for color and from start to finish I had dinner on in 15 minutes.

each serving has...
203 calories
31 g carbs
3 g fat
14 g protein

Back to the drawing board.

Time just slips away doesn't it! I was sitting at swimming lessons this morning and realized that our California trip is only 38 days away. If I work hard I think I can lose 15 pounds before we go. Not the 30 I was dreaming about but still 15 is 15. So here is my plan that I am putting into effect starting TODAY!

1-Count Calories and record daily!
2-Exercise DAILY!!
3-NO eating after 8 pm.!!
4- MORE water!!

number 3 will be a struggle for me. I am a muncher at night and I really need to change things.
I am still trying to decide if I am going to exercise on Sundays. It is a day of rest and I know your body needs a time to recuperate so I am leaning toward relaxing or maybe just doing the stretching DVD of P90X. Speaking of P90X I am starting today! I'm a little scared but I figure if I do that and maybe try to get a little run in every other day I can lose the 15 pounds I am shooting for.
I am loving My Fitness Pal!! It is a awesome FREE website that you can track your food and exercise. You can even enter you recipes and then add them to your food journal. It is amazing!! So there are my goals. Now I'm off to do a weigh in, measurements, and maybe a picture!
WISH ME LUCK!

Healthy Wrap

I made this wrap at my mom's house a week or so ago.

Tonight I was looking for something to make for dinner and 

happened to have all the ingredients needed for this.

PERFECT!

No cooking on a hot summer day and quite filling here is a picture and instructions

First off take a tortilla.

(I happened to have wheat ones so that is what I used.)

Then spread with about 1/2 to 1 TBSP of ranch dressing

add 4 slices of ham I used brown sugar ham

slice 1/4 of any apple (I had braeburn's on hand) into thin slices

squeeze a line of mustard down the center

shred some cheese and sprinkle on top.

Wrap up and enjoy!!

I think next time I may try putting some lettuce or spinach on it.

I hope you enjoy it!!

each wrap has about...

268 calories

31 g carbs

11 g fat

16 g protein

Where are you??

Have you wondered where I have gone to? Did you think I feel off the face of the earth? NOPE I'm still here. I hit a little block but here I am. I've had a head/chest cold. The kind full of mucus that makes life not so easy and working out HARD! I can hardly breathe. I haven't done much of anything for over a week. I'm ready for it to be over. I tried running on Monday but that was a joke. I was going to try again today while Remington was at track but between the band practicing on the track and the track club on the track and the fact that I can only breathe out of my mouth and need to blow my nose every 10 minutes, I opted to sit on the grass and watch my boys. I did however come home and mow the lawn. That was a chore it hadn't been done in 2 weeks.
I really want to get started on the P90X. I think tomorrow I will take measurements get them posted. I also will try and do a before photo. Sorry I won't be posing in my underwear like the program suggests. I know you are all heart broken about that! HA HA.

5k results!

Here are the stats to my race.
According to the results online there were...
876 runners.
Overall I came in 407 th
I finished in the top half.
In my age group 30-34 females there were ...
110 runners.
I came in 57 th
I was in the bottom half.
I finished in 38:13.06.
which is a 12:20 minute mile.
Overall I pretty proud of myself.

At first I thought I had finished in 40 minutes. I was a little bummed because that time was not much lower than the last 5k race I did. However that was the gun time. I was in the back of the pack and had a chip on my shoe so that when I crossed the starting line it started my chip time. I am going off of this and NOT the gun time. This feels more like a true time of how I ran. There were quite a few hills on this trail and the last one about did me in. I did see one girl throwing up. I guess I didn't push myself that hard. But I am VERY proud of myself and I can't wait to do another one. I am even thinking a 10k may be possible!!

p90x update

Well its taken me ALL week to be able to go through the information book. I guess this means that I will start on Monday after my 5k. I think I may post before and after pictures and maybe measurements. I'm still thinking on that one. So wish me luck on the 5k and the adventure of p90x!

weather

Could you all please pray for somewhat nice weather on Saturday??

I would really rather NOT run in the rain.