i NEED motivation

We went to St George with my side of the family. My little sister wanted to go shopping so I left the boys with Ryan and went with her, my mom, my other sister and her husband. We went to Down East and they had some of the cutest clothes. I found a skirt that I fell in love with and it was on clearance for 10 bucks. I tried it on much to my discouragement it didn't fit. I thought about buying it as a incentive. Maybe I should have but didn't. We went to another store and I found a skirt it fit and its cute I bought it. Here is my issue with that.
It is a elastic band. the other was a zipper. As I've been thinking about it all my comfy clothes are elastic band. I don't look cute and I feel awful I need motivation but I can't seem to find it. BLAH!

New Year

It is a brand new year. The slate has been wiped clean. I am starting AGAIN! I really don't like getting on my treadmill. It faces a blank wall and I can't stand staring at the wall even if I do have my ipod on. I have been pondering what I could do to fix it. I thought of rearranging my room so I could maybe get it to face the TV but that isn't going to work. So it has been a really good clothes rack lately. I have felt awful about it because I begged my husband to buy it for me. Well I finally came up with an idea and I hope it works. We have a portable DVD player and I have a few TV series on DVD so I am going to try watching 1 show a exercise day and see if that works. Why do I need to be entertained? Well I know I can go longer if I am entertained. I'm shooting for 4 days a week at 45 minutes a day. If weather is nice I think I may try for an outside walk. I got some new shoes with some money I got for Christmas so I really have no excuses!! wish me luck!